just came back from D&D..
quite enjoyed it..
received a few compliments in my pretty dress.. whaha..

won the 13th prize.. sumsung DVD..
i still hope i get the wii..
look forward to xmas party then!

taken quite alot of photos in da da jie's camera..
to be uploaded..

tomorrow must do presentation slides!!
dun tempt me with mj!

about money..
i have been cabbing from mon to thur which is today for this week.. hope i can catch public transport tml.. afterall i'm going out of job..

about money..
i have been playing mahjong too much recently.. but i still want to play.. =)
i played even after wrk.. even when there's work next day.. (tt's the reason for cab)

about money..
tues went for a short shopping with da jie..
bought some cuties hairclips.. a nice waist belt for my looser dresses @$30+

about money..
went centrepoint with da jie and da da jie to shop for our D&D dresses..
bought a dress @$70.90 after discount and with alteration..
going to collect it on sat.. hope it fits me perfectly..
main aim is to gain attention

about money..
i'm glad i'm doing better than xbf who can't even survive when pple owe him $150 ONLY..
and i can slowly wait til i'm happy before i chase my own $150.. lalalala..

about money..
afterall i'm a high-maintenance princess.. ping jie say she find me a rich bf..
and she better do.. <3 ping jie..

about money..
i nid more.. wanna buy more dresses.. though i wore 3 new ones this week already.. =)

about me..
i nid to be kept busy.. it's going to be a month..
the happiest time i have is when i meet new pples.. best is mj kakis..

about me..
announcement better be out by next week.. 32 more working days to go..

it's sunday..
took leave on fri.. supposed to be a long weekend.. but don't seem that long after all..

fri.. ktv..
after tt shopping alone..
bought 2 dresses and 2 tops.. <3
after tt overnight mahjong til sat..

sat was horrible.. not enuff sleep..
just plain tired..
at night tried to jio mj.. but just can't find any legs..
somehow just doze off suddenly at ard 8..
11 woke up awhile to try watching some vcd..
in the end went back to sleep at ard 1am..
slept thru til today 12pm..

and off mj again.. til 7pm..

still haven done my slides for tml presentation..
sianzz...

i really hate being alone at times like these..
even when i'm outside.. even when i'm mj-ing..
everytime when i'm not talking for even 10 sec..
i think back of many things..
it's not nice.. i hate it..

dun feel like working.. dun feel like doing anything..
just wanna lie under my blanket and sleep...

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24 more days til case closed.

sometimes i really hate toking to eFfy people.. ok.. mayb there's only one eFfy people i don't like to talk to.. sometimes....
 
the eFfy people like other normal pple are born with one mouth two ears..
but sometimes u will see that their one mouth is working harder than their two ears..
in other words.. they are always talking about other people and never listen when people are talking about them (the eFf people).

it's not really their fault for being eFf.. but then again it's also not for them to blame others for their own eFfness.. they looked like they don't really care that they are eFfy, but seriously, being eFfy is what they care most.. they appear to be confident but deep down they have little or no confidence.. and then in order to show their own confidence they liked to put down on non-eFf people..

eFf people also like to stay near to other "eFf" people.. these "eFf" people are not really eFf but the real eFf people thought they are as eFf as them so they liked them as they can camouflage their eFfness among their "eFf" friens.. and eFf people really hate the eSs pple.. becos simply....  the eSs pple will make their eFfness stand out..

although eSs people can be quite an ass sometimes.. at least they dun jump at everything the eFf pple say.. on other hand the eFf people are so bloody sensitive at what the eSs pple say they just like to shoot their single mouth off at every thing their two ears heard from the eSs people..

therefore.. if you mind your eFfness so much.. do something abt it.. by killing the eSs pple won't get rid of your eFfyness..

get it!

deleted the previous written when the princess was being possessed by the spirit of sadness..

the pride of the princess..
will only want things that goes her way..
will only show her glamorous happy side..
will not turn back to beg for something gone.
..
.
.
.

and from this moment on.. she will be back from her commoner's life..

The reflection of the 80-days relationship..

i remembered how he mentioned..
"i will take care of you to the last sec"
"i will not let you shed a tear for this relationship"
"i will cherish the limited time we will have"
"i hope i can be your last bf"
i had been immunized to sweet-talks.. but i still feels there's abit of sincerity in it..

i remembered how he give me assurance..
when i say i will be leaving my job end of the year, and i have yet to find job.. i initiate a split.. but he rejected, saying he will stand by me.........
when i say i'm feeling insecurity for the less-than-frequent meetups, it feels like he is entertaining me.. but he said no..
when i say i'm short-tempered, he say he has all his patience for me..
when i say my mum may have difficulties accepting him, he said he will try his best..

(before he buy tt MS 2x)
i like how he called me to chat.. if not, sms every now and then..
i like how he tried his best to meet up with me..
i like how he will call again or follow-up with an sms if i didn't pick up just to make sure everything is ok..
(after he buy tt MS 2x)
i hate how he call me once a day for a slightly-more-than one-minute chat.
i hate how he sms me for the sake of sms-ing..
i hate how he can wake up on time for tt 2x.. but not wake up on time for our meet-up..
i hate how didn't even bother to call back when i didn't pick up. basically it's "one missed call" and "one sms" perday..

he wanted to get into my circle of people..
i at first rejected becos i feel we are still early in the relationship --- i don't like to introduce, after a while split-up, people come asking me..
Recently I had already tell my friends his existence..
Recently I had also told my mum..
But guess what, it seems what i predicted was true..
I had to tell them it's over again..

I remembered..
J told me not to get together with him.
"he don't suit you"
"he MS like it's his life.."
"he is still filing for divorce, he can't even take care of his kids"
in the end, i dismissed what J say, and I think I have lost this friend.. =(

I also remembered..
before that, i had a scandal.. i missed the frequent nearly-two-hours chat..
i missed the often late-night few mins meetup..
i missed how scandal will meet me after my friends went off after movie..
yes, i did wish before that he was my bf....
but after one month into the relationship, i decided to kill it all off and be committed..
now that it's back to square one, i tried to get it back.. but it's all too late..
I think I have also lost this friend.. =(

The reason why I didn't object when he initiated the break up..
1. we are actually two different people, in colors term.. i think i consist of some middle-toned colors and little bit of bright color, while i think he is grey.. i don't think it's a big difference, but it also don't gif me a reason to object the break up..
2. he don't see there's anything wrong with spending more time MS than me..
3. he is a divorcee with 2 kids. which isn't a reason y i should object.. or a reason that i shouldn't object..
4. the most important reason, if he is someone who easily bring up this topic.. then i don't want him..

Being sad?
 - Not really, didn't cry alot.. only like a few drops.. compared to the days i'm with JS and CT it's like comparing minutes to months..
 - Yes, I have lost 2 friends.. who really make me laugh from the bottom of my heart.. even Lance don't make me laugh so hard..
 - Yes, because I don't win mahjong easily anymore.. =(.